I haven't been quiet because I'm short of ideas or words. Quite the opposite. I'm flooded with things I want to say, but I haven't been sure if this is the right place to share. I've decided that if this isn't the place, I need to stop this altogether. I may do that if this post turns into a bad idea, but I hope it won't. When I started writing this site, I wanted attention. I wanted to connect and get validation for what I had to say. I wanted it all now.

Once I was aware that I wasn't speaking into a black hole -- that you were coming back daily to see what I discovered on the web or in my life, I was hooked (addicted, compelled, whatever word you want to use). I was hooked on making you return by giving you what I thought you wanted. That's not the same as what I need to say. I edit and sanitize these ideas because if I don't, you might go. If I give you clever links and hide behind the sarcastic commentary, I'm not doing what I set out to do. And that is: write honestly. It's exhausting work to guess at and construct a reality that I think will make everyone like me. I have been working that job too long.

If you leave because of posts like this, that's alright.